The lovely and talented Sarah is doing a meme called Thirty Days of Truth. Truth be told, I have not been very inspired to write here very often, but this exercise appeals to me. I'm not saying I'll do all the topics in 30 consecutive days, but I will do 'em all. Eventually.
Anyway, let's get started with Day 01: Something I Hate About Myself
I could take the easy route here and say I hate some physical feature or other, but I think I will just come out and say this:
I hate how bad I am at keeping up with friendships. Perhaps it's because I'm an intravert, or I'm afraid that people won't want to hear from me, or because I get tongue tied and feel self conscious about saying something stupid. Hell, I don't know. I do know that I'm just not good at it and I never really have been, not even when I was a kid, or maybe I'm just lazy.
I'm always happy to hear from my friends and I'm eternally grateful to the ones who continue to keep up with me, because I am so bad at keeping up with them. I have let friendships gradually dissolve through inattention and one day I wake up and think Hey, I wonder whatever happened to...
But do I pick up the phone? No, I do not, because by then I am too embarrassed to. Actually, email helps, and so does Facebook (amazingly enough), so maybe I will get better at this through the magic of technology.
My Pop was like this, I think. I don't remember him ever calling up his friends or going out with the guys. Mom made all of the social arrangements; Pop went along for the ride.
Well, nature is no excuse. I think I'm going to have to work on this character flaw or I'll end up being a spooky old crone living alone, chasing the kids off the lawn.
If you're game for this, the topics are listed after the jump.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself