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Day 4: Something You Have to Forgive Someone For

I forgive you, my best friend from forever ago. You dumped me as a friend, without a word. There was a good reason for the dumping but if you had told me what I'd done, I'd have crawled on my belly to make it up to you. I had to find out about it from our mutual friends. I had thought we were as close as two people could be, but I expect that it's the people closest to our hearts who have the power to break those hearts into a million pieces.

If you wanted to hurt me as much as I hurt you, to give me a taste of my own medicine, you succeeded. The taste was bitter and humbling. Though I tried to explain how I came to commit that particular mortal sin of omission and begged you for a chance to make it right, you decided that the sin was too great and put me on your permanent shit list. It was 10 years before we saw each other again. I supposed we reached a truce then; we parted with kind words and a brief hug . That was 20 years ago. I haven't seen you since and doubt I ever will.

If you never forgive me for hurting you, I understand. Is it complete and utter hubris to say I forgive you for rejecting our friendship because I made that mistake? Perhaps it is; nevertheless, for me to let go of this, I have to forgive you and simply hope that you have forgiven me too.