Second Verse, Same As The First

Today was Day 1 of Treatment 2 for my SLL. Now it's almost 9:00 PM and I am drinking espresso. There may also be a shortbread cookie lurking around the demitasse cup. It went just fine. Day 1 is the long day, but today the long day was a shorter day compared to the first long day - only 4½ hours. I got all of the same poisons life-saving drugs as last time, but smaller... Read more →


As far as inspirational sayings go, I may have seemed a little snarky in my previous post. I didn't mean to, honest. I have nothing against inspirational sayings. I even have a few favorites, like this one from Nolan Bushnell: Just when you think the sun shines out of your ass, all you have is an illuminated landing strip. The Signals catalog (and others, I expect) have nice cuff bracelets engraved with inspirational words and... Read more →

First Treatment

Whew! My first chemo-immuno-therapy treatment is over, done and dusted, in the history books. It was everything I expected and not at all what I expected, all at the same time. Dr. S, my oncologist, and my Michele, my nurse are simply wonderful. Dr. S filled me on the drugs and how they worked and what the side effects would be. She went over the results of the FISH test, which revealed that I have... Read more →

Decision Made

So. I start chemo-immuno-therapy for my Small Lymphocytic Lymphoma (SLL) on January 30 and 31. If we're friends on Facebook, you may know this already. I didn't make this decision lightly, like "Oh boy! This might be fun to try!" No, I read a lot. I thought a lot. I asked a lot of other people what they thought about it. And it basically comes down to Yes, I Should Do This. My most recent... Read more →

A Resolution

Tomorrow I must go back to work after a little more than a week off. I don't wannnnnah. I do not! Alas, if I want to get paid, I guess I'll have to gird my grid and get my act together. I've reactivated my alarm. Joe went out and started Chicolini; he deserves a medal for doing this. It almost didn't start, thanks to the frigid weather, but Joe insisted. He ran the car for... Read more →

The Eyes Have It

Dang! I missed posting yesterday; I blame the snow. It was really coming down just after lunch and Joe suggested that I come home before the roads got nasty. I allowed as how I'd be home in an hour. An hour later the snow was coming down even harder. So I packed up my laptop and headed home. I worked a little more and then set my laptop aside to take a break. Joe was... Read more →


I was tired today. It's because I did not sleep well last night. I did my nightly ritual, which generally ensures that I sleep pretty well, but alas! It did not work last night. I woke up at 2:00 AM with terrible heartburn - luckily it was not accompanied by a vurp - and tried to swallow it away. That didn't work, so I heaved myself out of bed and chewed up two Tums. Then... Read more →

Decisions, Decisions

So. I had my regularly-scheduled bloodwork and CT scans, which keep an eye on my small lymphocytic lymphoma (SLL). The bloodwork came back fine -- my absolute lymphs are slightly high, but that's it. Good to go for bloodwork! My CT scans (neck, chest, abdomen, and pelvis) show that my zillions of enlarged lymph nodes haven't gotten bigger and are unchanged when compared to my previous CT scans. Yay scans! But. I'm having multiple hot... Read more →

My Impatient Patient

So, my friends on Facebook may know that Joe had arthroscopic shoulder surgery last Friday. He came through the surgery beautifully and is even now taking his first shower since the surgery. I know he'll feel immeasurably better after that. Right after the surgery was done, the surgeon came out to tell me that all was well. She showed me many technicolor photographs of his shoulder and described exactly what she did, but I'll be... Read more →

Ebb and Flow

I had a little bit of a tough time yesterday. I slept poorly, partly the result of a nagging, nasty backache that made turning over in bed a painful undertaking. I went through cycles of too hot, too cold, too hot, too cold. And, I stayed up too late. I seem to think that staying up later means that I'll sleep better, maybe straight through for six hours. It never happens that way and I... Read more →