Thirty Days of Truth 12 Through 16
Guilty As Charged

'Tis The Season

Holi10-badge-holly Once again it's Holidailies time! It's a sure sign of the season, along with twinkling Christmas lights, frosty weather, and sinus problems.

This will be the first Christmas without Mom, and it is making me sadder than I thought it would. I can't read any of my "Mother" entries without tearing up or downright crying, so I don't read them anymore.

Instead I focus on little things that make me happy: twinkling Christmas lights, the slanting sun illuminating the bare trees, a hot cup of coffee. I bake -- yesterday I made shortbread cookies and dipped them in white chocolate, yum! I sit on my ass without guilt. I watch a lot of hockey on TV and I play a lot of silly games online and it takes my mind off my melancholia.

There is talk of spending New Year's Eve in Ocean City. If I go -- it will depend on Joe's work schedule -- I will go down to the ocean at midnight and throw this year into the ocean, where it can sink to the bottom of the wide, dark sea.

And then I will look at the stars and breath the cold, clean ocean air and welcome in a fresh new year.

 

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